Award-winning actor, rapper, and entrepreneur Will Smith admitted he contemplated suicide during the taping of a YouTube series about physical fitness and weight loss.

“This began as a journey to get into the best shape of my life,” said the actor in the trailer for “Best Shape of My Life,” in which he sets out to lose 20 pounds in 20 weeks.

While reflecting on his upcoming memoir, the series follows Will’s journey to lose 20 pounds in 20 days. The docuseries corresponds with the memoir, and highlights Smith working on his book and working out in the trailer.

“When I started this show, I thought I was getting into the best shape of my life physically, but mentally I was somewhere else,” he said in a voiceover for the series. “I ended up discovering a whole lot of hidden things about myself. That was the only time in my life that I ever considered suicide.”

The docuseries is produced by Smith and wife Jada Pinkett Smith’s production company, Westbrook Media. The media company is also the production entity of Jada’s Facebook series Red Table Talk

The series Best Shape of My Life will premiere on Youtube on Monday, Nov. 8. 

If you are in crisis or know someone in crisis, call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255) or contact the Crisis Text Line by texting HOME to 741741. You can reach Trans Lifeline at 877-565-8860 (U.S.) or 877-330-6366 (Canada) and The Trevor Project at 866-488-7386